Short Preface: I am not endorsing this movie. If you have not seen it, and your curiosity gets the best of you – know that it is a secular movie and has colorful language.
That being said, I’d never seen this cult classic made in the early 2000’s prior to a couple weeks ago. It was merely by accident that I came upon it now. It started innocently enough after searching on Youtube for “Mad World” by Tears for Fears. Afterwards, this commentary video about this movie Donnie Darko began playing. As to not interrupt my productivity of tidying up, I allowed the video to continue.
The movie was one of Jake Gyllenhall’s first, and the song “Mad World” had been redone for the purpose of cinema. It had a pretty stellar cast including Patrick Swayze and Drew Barrymore, to name a couple. I suppose I never knew about the movie’s existence because it’s release happened to coincide the timeframe of 9/11.
The point about the movie I would like to make, and the irony for me, is how the labeled “hypocrites” of the movie sound like I must have come across over the last year. This is especially true for the few who may read my blog.
Patrick Swayze is this sort of religious leader that harps on looking in the mirror over and over. It’s been quite humorous (and ironic), hearing my own words in the voice of this character.
I just thought I’d clear the air, the irony is not lost on me. I still continue to screw things up daily – just with a little more grace.
This blog is simply an attempt to connect and share my personal journey with infidelity- sprinkled with some tidbits of addiction struggles and life in middle age.
It is all my own. None of it has been fabricated, distorted, or sugar-coated. Every moment I’ve described about feeling God tell me to confess my own infidelity – every bit is non- fiction.
I still believe that an attempt to be a better person does start with the cliche of looking in the mirror.
Whether it was a chemical, or the attention of a man, it was only to distort my reality. I suppose that the distortion of myself was always the real distraction to begin with.