The Unpopular Opinion Of Hope

“Sometimes you win some, sometimes you lose some………… It’s easy to see when there’s nothing to bring me down. But what will I say, when I’m held to the flame, like I am right now? I know You’re able, and I know You can, save through the fire with Your mighty hand But even if […]

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The One Year Mark, The “B” Word, And The Hero Of This Story

Whether you make it happen solo, or together.. Of late, I’ve written several posts about anything other than directly relating to where my marriage stands. Discussing my own imperfections and guilt is not only cathartic, it’s something within MY CONTROL. I find a sense of relief, because I’m not dealing with the direct pain from […]

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The Middle (Being Lukewarm)

Like one of favorite fellow WordPress blogs Fractured Faith, I too, have struggled with my relationship with God. I was not one of the fortunate children who were homeschooled, sheltered from the secular world. I was brought up in and of the world, complete with cable TV and a 40 year-old Dad who took his […]

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I Refused To Be A Prude – So I Offered Him Another Woman

You read that correctly. Years ago, approximately the 7 year itch mark, I refused to allow my marriage to become stale. I prided myself on not being a prude. I watched porn with my husband, I performed whenever I thought he desired, there even came a point that I offered a threesome. Yep. I truly, […]

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When Some ‘Things’ Don’t Work Themselves Out

For some reason I was reminded the other day of my of very early nursing days and one of my most unusual encounters with a patient. (Of course I will remain as vague as possible for anonymity purposes, but I think you’ll get the drift.) Once upon a time on a surgical unit of a […]

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Hosea’s Lot

When the infidelity disclosure door first busted open in our home the first person(s) we ran to were our pastor and his wife. They were our age, and displayed the most Godly portrait of what marriage should be to us. It was extremely nice to just be able to tell someone the whole truth and […]

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Suffering on hold

I’ve heard people describe infidelity discovery and recovery as a roller coaster. That is a decent description, and also one that I’ve used myself, but I feel it’s more accurate to say it’s like an off – road adventure. There’s been very few moments of “fun” like a roller- coaster would imply though. It’s felt […]

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