Explaining God – Akin To Teaching Science

Speaking from a personal perspective only, I don’t know how people navigate through the trials and tribulations of life today without faith. When I was just coming upon my teen years, I felt called to an alter at a southern Church of God. I don’t know if it was the atmosphere that was created by […]

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Would I Tell Again?

Never in my life have I wished or longed for death – nor considered speeding up the process of ceasing to live – until the aftermath of the infidelity. Had I known what I would have to endure, the toll it would take on my mental and physical health, and the affect I would have […]

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The Unpopular Opinion Of Hope

“Sometimes you win some, sometimes you lose some………… It’s easy to see when there’s nothing to bring me down. But what will I say, when I’m held to the flame, like I am right now? I know You’re able, and I know You can, save through the fire with Your mighty hand But even if […]

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A Confession, An Apology

I wish I could attest that I’ve always walked with integrity as the Brene Brown quote says, but I digress. It’s easy to say you would NEVER do something, until you do that something. I don’t fit exactly into any category squarely when it comes to the infidelity clicks. Yes, I was betrayed. Yes, my […]

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Funny Hair

Recently I had a run in with a gentleman with whom we used to attend church. He and I had an additional thread in common besides the house of worship. That is, a love for photography. So naturally the conversation turned to his latest gigs and triumphs in the industry, of which I was super […]

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Grateful for Grace (and a random preacher)

I’ve done some pretty despicable things in my life. If I allow myself to sit and ponder on some of the decisions I’ve made, it makes me weep with sadness. Sadness for not only how I’ve hurt others and tarnished my soul, but how I must’ve hurt God. I’ve recently been going to bed listening […]

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What can happen in a year?

I’ve been a total wreck for almost a year when it comes to caring for my body. I had previously lost 45 pounds a few years ago and had done well at keeping it off with diet and exercise – until last year. I had also gotten my body built up to be able to […]

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All things sensual, sexual

It’s everywhere. Sex sells. Why does every image in a western with that woman in the saloon – ready to take a cowboy up to a room stimulate me to feel so anxious? Oh yeah- that really happens..(maybe not like the western, but there certainly are brothels – true story) So we turn the channel […]

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Letting go of the ‘unletgoable’

Okay, so I just made up that word. I know there’s a real word (unforgivable) that would almost fit, but it just didn’t describe exactly what I’m trying to convey. Just like my daughter’s 2 year old daughter, currently screaming her head off in my presence because she doesn’t want to let go of her […]

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How many triggers tonight?

Wonder how many triggers I’ll have to deal with tonight? When my 11 year old son first asked if we’d take him to the carnival that’s in town this week, I dreaded the crowd and forced interactions with people I don’t care much to socialize with, but thought I’d suck it up for the sake […]

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